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I woke up this morning thinking that there is no way I can do this. I am going to starve. I don't know what I am doing. I went to the kitchen and made my first concotion of Green Lemonade.
1 head of romaine lettuce organic
5 stalks of organic kale
1 organic lemon
2 organic fuji apples
a piece of ginger
It took about 6 minutes to make. I used my new juicer-Juiceman juicer. It was the cheapest so I thought it may suck, but it worked fine for all practical purposes. Unfortunately I put too much ginger. YUCK. Next time not so much ginger.
I ate an apple at 10:45 and a banana at noon.
I made a lunch for school. I mage a chopped veggie salad with bell peps, carrots, zuchini, green beaners, fresh corn, ect. Then I made in the blender a ginger-carrot dressing.
I ate this at 3:00 I was pretty hungry by this time.
It tastes to vinegary though. I must try to remedy this next time. I also packed some nuts and a almond butter sanwich. My only mistake was the sandwich. After I read it I discovered you are not supposed to eat nut butter and sprouted whole wheat together. Oppsies.
When I got home at 8:45 I was a bit hungry so I ate some baby carrots. Organic of course!
Overall today went well. I talked to 2 people about eating raw. One girl said she knows a woman who does it and she has lost alot of weight. Another girl thought it sounded gross. She also said she loves fast food-it's real american food don't you know. I
I still haven't smoked or drank soda. Suprisingly I have no desire. I have also had no urge to purge!
Today is the first day of my new life. I have decided to do a few things that could potentially change my life forever. I am doing the Raw Food Detox Diet. I am super excited about this new plan. I bought a book and everything. Tonight I went out and bought a juicer and tons of fresh organic produce. I am really into this new idea of eating all organic and raw. ALthough I know it has to be a process I am really psched to get started.
Recently I have been struggling with bulimia. I never thought I would have this problem, but I do. I have been working out constantly but still eating like a pig. I feared I would gain weight so I decided to make myself throw up instead. It all started Christmas Eve day. I ate so much at a dinner that I felt sick. I mean I really porked out. I ate likea whole basket of fries and a chicken burger and a cocktail. It was gross. On my way home I realized I needed to puke. It was the only thing that would make me feel better. I didnt even know if I would make it all the way home, but I did. Once home I puked like 10 times and still didnt feel satisfied. I knew this was apotentially dangerous move, but I was so grossed out I didn't care. Over the holidays and until now I have thrown up everyday after at least one of my meals. Funny thing is I have gained weight! I feel so polluted and fat. I know that I have been stuck at 160 lbs because of my poor eating habits. I have only told one or two people about this problem I am having. The only reason Itold them was because I was REALLY drunk. Otherwise I would never share that with anyone. It is disgusting and I am ashamed. But I am ready for a change.
Overall I know I eat healthy. I dont eat red meat and I love veggies. But it is the presence of proccessed and chemically treated foods that is holding me back in my life. I want control over my eating. I want to feel alive. Raw Foods is the new way for me.
Today I have not thrown up, smoked, or drinken soda or alcohol. I have begun my adventure in eating raw and healthy. I have a slight headache and I am dizzy but I know this is temporary. I am interested to see where this goes. i have decided to keep a journal of the emotions I go through as I change my lifestyle.
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